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April 25, 2005
Kafka, John Malkovich, and my head
I opened my eyes this morning, still all tingles and so elated by all the kind comments I had recieved yesterday. CHEY, MY SWEET SOUL, IT WAS MORE THAN A GULP FROM YOUR PAIL, you filled me body and soul with such generousity, that words fail me. I am charmed, and taken by your daring expressions.
I tried to get up, but I could not, I mean I was able to bring down my legs to the floor, but it was my head, I could not lift it, I tought maybe a stroke, or some kind of malady, but then I noticed how my head had expanded, it had coverd most of my pillow, and encrouched to the other side of the bed. I thought of KAFKA, and thanked god, that I have not been turned to a Roach. I called my wife, " MARJAAAAAAN, sweet heart, I need help here". Before you know it she showed up at the door, with Kiana and Amin in towe. They all looked at me, Kiana shrieked, "Daddy what happened to you". Amin was aghast, but Marjan was laughing her heart out. Kiana yelled, " MOM, why are you laughing, he needs help". Marjan Calmed her down, she had a camera ready and took a picture, and said" I was ready for this, Kiana, after reading Idinraha.com, last night, I knew this would happen, just calm down.", she came over me with a needle in hand still giggling. " do not wory kids, I have done this before, never had seen daddy's head so big, but its okay.". She punched my head witht the needle in three places, right where my EGO is and my head started to shrink. Only that woman knows how to bring me down.
After Marjan and the kids left, I recited in loud voice to myself, "Javad you are fat man, not very good looking, you are middle age, you can not spell words to save your life, you are a reluctant faillier as a business man, you have a snake as a tongue, you suck in bed, you brain is medically alltered, you are a deppressed poet wannabe, with a 60 mg a day PAXIL CR (I am still looking for some )drug habbit, you are scared of flying,you are scared of heights, you have MOMMY issues, WOMEN ISSUES, Gender issues, sexuall issues, two of your brothers do not talk to you, you are missguided politically, you love George Bush, you are a conservative( that did really hurt),you have MANCRUSHES, YOU adore Dick Wolfe, you are smaller than most men you know( that was bellow the belt), you are a midnight walker, chocolate monger, who lusts after any pretty face you see, you owe money to your dad, and most of your suppliers, you barely could support your family, you still can not shave, you write about your breasts, you are scared of flying( she had said that already ), and the only blessing in your life is your beautifull, loyal wife, who is stuck with you, and pittys you,and two addoring kids, because they do not know any Better.".
By this time my mouth had foamed, and I was tired, I already felt better, my head was back to its actual size, and I felt as normal as I usually do. then I thought , " I should have a talk with Cyrus this is getting too much, he should know I can not take compliments and that.... CHEY, I should tell her somethin", then while I was leaving the room I continiued, " no showers for you, just go to the GYm, and then go to work, you waisted so much time this morning.". I was a bit black and blue with a bit of deflation mark where my EGO is inside my head, but I was back, ............SHOW TIME.
IF YOU DO NOT HAVE IT, GET ONE, I am talking about DIDO's second CD, it has been such a good companion to me, the music is great, the Lyrics are out of this world, and all the songs are the best of their kind. so get yourself one and enjoy it, Also SADE's last album, out of this world sisters, a little treasure. WINTER SOLSTICE is another little movie, that is getting the raves out there, if you get a chance, go watch it. it's about a man and his reationship with his sons, If only KING Lear, or RICHARD THE LION HEART , could see it , it would have saved them many heartaches.!
Shrink Lady, Pleeeeeease, be a pal, take them off, let us appriciate you inside an out, we try to be gentelmanly and you will be so much better for it. Inasy, sister you can write, the comment you left took my breath away, and I am greatfull for the knowing you allow us, you both, please consider writing a rant for us, and CHEY, after what you left me, I think I LOVE YOU, you know in a poetic way. you are FAB. MeTal has a new poem posted on Poets.com, which I enjoyed reading at midnight, and left her a comment.
Only if Kafka had a wife like Marjan. LIFE IS GOOD
Posted by Idinraha at April 25, 2005 09:00 AM
Comments
Indiraha, there is nothing wrong in focusing on failures as all those who succeeded also failed more than once in their lives. The difference with those who continued to fail or stayed as failures and those who succeeded, is that those who suceeded did not dwell on those failures. Learning from out mistakes and moving on are essential.
So you had some bad things happen, those events don't define who you are as a person. You are still you and your worth as a human being is not based on those incidents. Remember you are so much more than those negative events in your life. We can all sit here and look at our lives and count the failures we have accomplished; I hate to disappoint you but it does not require much talent ;-). However, how few of us can write such deep poetry? Realize that from that pit of darkness (your failures) came a fresh light - your talent as a writer and poet.
Not to detract from your post, ever read any of Sylvia Plath's poetry? Sylvia Plath suffered from deep depression. Let me know if you have heard of her. I think you will appreciate her poetry and work - there is even a film on her. She was married to Ted Hughes who was once Britian's Poet Laurette.
Posted by: ShrinkLady at April 26, 2005 01:11 AM
Dear SL, you lay me down, and such generosity in your comments, thanks for shedding a light, i now of Sylivia Platt, and hav read some of her poems,l however when it comes to peots with DISORDER, the Delicious Ms Anne SAXTON, is more of my Cup of poison, oh she takes me, I adore her self abused poetry, enjoy her shamelesness, and the pure sexuality of her poems, she has had a great effect on me and you can trace her in my poems, specially MY DEBUTANTES, and many other poems. My depression is just another attempt by me to get sympathy specially fron the oppsite sex, and there is plenty of Narcissism, and bravado in it.I am a silly man, as my kids call me, a silly daddy, who can not wait to grow up and at the same time I am enjoying the process, today I will post THE KISS, one of my favorite by
Delicious Ms, Sexton. and sweet SL, my wounds are mostly self induced, so I can feel more and write more, AM I GETTING DEFFENSIVE ? eh
Posted by: Idinraha at April 26, 2005 08:33 AM
If that is what gives you inspiration, then whom am I to take it away or tell you otherwise?
Posted by: ShrinkLady at April 26, 2005 11:18 AM
Funny how far one has to go for a morsel of inspiration. please do not stop telling, I find your pieces insightful, and can not get enough.
Posted by: Idinraha at April 26, 2005 11:29 AM
I think you will also like Stevie Smith; she is a favourite of my best friend who writes poetry. She loves Sylvia Plath - she studied her in college.
Posted by: ShrinkLady at April 27, 2005 12:14 AM
Idin^Ja, the writer in you is sooooo funnyyyyy! The man in you is soooo honest, and the woman in you IS the man in you,,,,, I am so glad your lovely wife knows just how to help you through your bouts of 'enlarged' head syndrome. Although your willingness to bare all through the use of such self-depravating humour makes it impossible for you suffer any permanant damage from your enlarged head. Besides I think your head has a lot of growing to do to catch up to your BIG
PS I just came across a post where someone claimed you as a good friend (which I gathered as much from your writings) but I wanted to say that such a claim should be an honor.
Posted by: chey at April 27, 2005 11:14 AM
Sweet, restless Chey, you are kind, and from what I saw of your pictures you do have a healthy big heart too. But sweet heart,your comments about the man and the woman in me is confusing me further, and God knows I am confused, just ribbing you. thanks for kind comments, and my wife is inline for sainthood after leaving with me as long as she has with such dedication.
I loved the quote you sent me, it was scrumpscious.
It is a blessing to have you here, tell us as much as you want, it would bea pleasure to listen,
Posted by: Idinraha at April 27, 2005 11:30 AM
Dear SL, thanks for the tip, I will look her up, do not stop telling us, about anything, anytime, I am nozy, and I like to listen
Posted by: Idinraha at April 27, 2005 11:33 AM
I was checking my spammail and came across one with the subject "you deserve a bigger penis" and I immediately thought of forwarding it to you.
Posted by: David at April 27, 2005 02:11 PM
Thanks my friend, For your selfless consideration, But I like my penis, as it is, warts an all(figure of speech), I like the shape,
and the way it feels , it has been a good loyal friend, getting me through many a thight situations, a source of joy, and ecstasy, very loyal, and understanding, though recently more and more reclusive, but eternally optimistic. The size have been fine, since I am not rying to find employment in any industries that have that kind of requirements, kind of avarage and all together OK, but thank you anyway.
Posted by: Idinraha at April 27, 2005 03:22 PM
So predictable of a MAN. Adoring your penis as expected. Not to mention showing off your balls through that silk underwear. Whatever works buddy!
Posted by: David at April 27, 2005 05:24 PM
Not addoring, I already gave you credit, by reporting yours being bigger than mine, and I just wanted to reassure you that I was ok since you suggested that mine might need enhancing, actually mine, is not really mine, I leave it at home, where Marjan keeps it in the fridge, for safekeeping. You see now, You found your way to the gutter, and I followed you. very MANLY of us.
Posted by: Idinraha at April 27, 2005 06:00 PM
so what else is new , 2 grown men with an all female audience engage in cpa (comparative penile analysis).
SL has been taking notes as usual, Inasy is having nothing to do with this topic, and me ,,well I've made tea of course! Carry on^lol
Posted by: chey at April 27, 2005 06:36 PM
Javaad Jan, as for your conscious comment: YESS, YOU followed MY lead and you are responsible for what YOU do. Wherever I was or I am going, gutter or not, by NOW you should know that I think before I talk/write and when I do something or say there is a reason, but I am watching your back don't worry. I already know you have big balls!
I am a man, I am happy that I am one and I wouldn't change it for a minute. And yet I love women for what THEY are. Your silk and their panties is none of my business just as my boxers are of noone else's. I have no problem with this site, but as I have already said it, it is too feminine for ME.
Females want me because I am a male. If anyone has problem with my comments or the male in me, so be it. This new world trend is slowly stripping men of their identity and it already had done that to women. Women and some men deny it all day long but the fact remains that EVERYONE EITHER HAS A PENIS OR WANTS ONE.
But isn't it amazing that you can say ALL you want and the minute I say it, the gutter it is?
Use the same wand for all, is for your own good father. You keep doing it MAN.
BTW: I have a big smile on my face as I write as man who is not a poet or a writer :-)
Posted by: David at April 27, 2005 07:20 PM
My sweet Fereydoon, You should know by now everything written here, except the poems is in a jest, just muzings, I love gutters, we come here to have fun, but somehow I think you were not only telling me this, God kno0ws there is enough pain an missery outside theses doors, so take your shoes off, let me robb your back, give me a hug, and lets have some sweet tea.
Posted by: Idinraha at April 28, 2005 09:24 AM
"You should know by now everything written here, except the poems is in a jest, just muzings"
Yes I knew, and now I am glad everyone else does too including what I say here.
I hope you don't think that all the new life here is just cooincidental. It deserved it and I am doing my part, just as your new friends are. I hand picked them personally and very selectively over the past few months, and I knew you will give them the warm persian hospitality that you have and they deserve. Yes idinraha is a work in progress and I'll see in to it that Inas finds you in the book store next to her own book. Remember I never left you even when you thought I did ;-)
Posted by: David at April 28, 2005 12:53 PM