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April 24, 2005
The word is dead when.........
"The word is dead when it is said, some say, but I say it begins to live that day", -Emily Bronte
I got a card from my teacher, I was probably seventeen, enrolled in NY at Spanish American Institue, away of learning more of english language and extending my Visa, before my clsses staretd in September. and my teacher was nice enough to give me that card, she knew I was interested in writing, and on the cover of the card, was drawing of two hands, drawing each other, very creative.
The emotions register in our minds, wired to action in different form, and then the files open words are chosen to fit those emotion, depending on the depth of the intentions and theri direction, their jest, their reach, the voice box comes to life, and through the mechanism of your moving tongue, the space it ocopies, and the usage of air, sounds comes out, in love, in hate, in sympaty, and then they are heard and through more complex mechanism of hearing they are bundled with your body language, the reach of your eyes and then they are matched against the words that are present in the listeners mind, they become extention of our wants and desire.
We connect, we come across, we join, and meet within such excercise. The lovers get to woe the beloved, passion have risen buy it, wars have started, peace have been achived, hearts have been broken. By extentions and reach of words. And yes they do become to live that day, they stay, they become memories, and sometimes they are so hard to be errased again. We teach these words to our kids, we make them their tools of expressions, and they get to make their lives around them, words.
My mother always used to tell me, " you should have the Camel troat, you should taste your words chew on them before you set them free." she also used to tell me " Javad, your red stinging tongue, would be the ruin of your green mind", she used to warn me, to be carefull, and I have not. Being a SCORPIAN, I am vicious in my expression when I want to, and as My Beautiful wife Marjan says," You always go for the Jagular, and cut so deep". For a usually mild manner man who can be charming, and allow the sweet nectar of his love to flow so easily,
I do become the one eyed GHOUL, and cut the beloved to pieces, with the same tngue that I had been so effective to woe the same beloved.
I am not bragging, but I am a good friend, and a bad enemy. Always extreme, in all I do, in loving and in hating I devour, and chew, and cut the morsels to dust, and spew poison if I am pushed. I am not bragging, it is nothing to bragg, just a man in persuit of bettering himself by showcasing his faults, and trying to learn. It seems for reasons you might know and yet you might not, I do fail in my quest more often than I should, and I am not happy about it. So I try and try again, and then I will some more.
In writing these pages I come to have a dialogue with you , but mainly with the demons in me, I get to point out my shortcomings, and encourage myself to extend my efforts further. For I know I can be a better man, and that is what i do expect from me.
Well, MeTal is back with words of encouragements, love and forgiveness, Fereydoon has forgiven me my moments of cruelty, and Cyrus as always has nothing but calrity of his honest thoughts for me, I am greatfull to all of them and all of you as I have tried your patients and have always asked for more. Chey our new friend, seems to be as shameless and generous with her words, and has left us two beautifull comments, We are so much better for having you here CHEY. and your spills nourish the soil we tread on, so tell us more, and I extend an invitation to you to write us a GUEST RANT, what ever your heart desires, we have no boundries here, as my friends already know, push us, dare us, open a new window, and tell us we will be charmed and taken by it, and we can not wait.
Fereydoon is going to be away for a few days, attending his friends and family, I will leave comments for him on his site,( believe me, he asked), and I wish all of you visit his site, and give back a bit of so much he has given us. and thanks again for putting up with me.
Posted by Idinraha at April 24, 2005 11:14 AM
Comments
hi javad joon, aziam you are a very good friend, and I hope I will never have you as an enemy! :O
Posted by: fafar at April 25, 2005 09:23 PM