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May 18, 2005
suburban indifferences
It is quiet, just the sound of the cars outside, and the buzz of the floresence lights. Days like this make me wish I had someone I could call, and talk, but I am not into small talk, and after a while on the phone, I want them to go away, and leave me alone. I am bored, I need a sparkle, a jolt, summer comes endless with humid hours of wait, and it is still spring here.
It is so sad that when we grow up, we lose the seasons, we do not wait for them, they just come and pass while we are busy with more important living things. It should be beautifull by the beach i tell myself, the air should be crisp and a bit more cold, the way I like it. maybe I take a walk down there, I don't know. I wrote a new piece yesterday, the style is very different than how I write. It is bare, not groomed the word choice is very efficient, it is like a mirror, the way you look at it and see the familiar things and you miss the background, that is where the whole living is, in the background. Yesterday as usuall i was looking for a new bit, a new word, somethign interesting, something I could put on the paper, so it takes its own form and bring me something, a piece, a poem. I found one and i like it , it might became a title of a poem, or comes in the body of the piece pointing to its truth,"SUBURBANITE
INDIFFERENCES" or i could change it to "SUBURBAN INDIFERENCES", for the time being I fold it and let it float inside my big head.
I don't kinow if you guys noticed, but we had a new visitor, and he was brave enough to leave a comment, AMIR, he introduces himself as a friend of ARASH, and left a beautiful heartfelt comment about ARASH.
I do not kno0w how he found us, but I am glad that he was here. My body is in pain, all my muscles ache, it serves me right, and a bit of pain is not bad at all. I feel excersising clears my head, but I should get more rest, I need a good eight hours of sleep tonight, but sleeping bores me, it always has. Not that i am a very productive person, but I feel even less productive after long sleeping. I heard a nice qoute the other day " DREAMS ARE THE WISHES YOUR HEART BRINGS"
Yesterday I went to see HOUTAN, I have had a bit of pain in my right ear, and last time I had such a thing it became infectious, and very painfull, so I thought I better catch it sooner this time. On my way to his office i stopped and bought him a book, MEN IN BLACK, he is an avid reader. He checked my eyes after i passed trough his receptionist, and the new nurse, Marsh, she is cute, and I flirted and joked with her to my hearts delight. Houtan told me I have SWIMMERS ear, and I am not a swimmer, he gave me some medicine to deal with it, and when I asked him if the medicine comes in form of sepository, he laughed, shaking his head.
We are done with the kids birthdays, although Kiana still has a ceremony at an outside place for her cousins and friends on Saturday, and Amin is taking his friends, and Steven his cousin to STAR WARS on Sunday. I bought Amin the book TRAVEL TEAM some time ago and I am planning to find it and get him to read it together, I am sure Kiana would join us, and might even finish it before us. She is so competative, and driven.
I will post my poem THEIR HOUSE on these pages today, if you get a chance do read it and tell me how you liked it, it is very different, and I have come to like and enjoy the style of its writing. It is always refreshing to me to try different styles, it is like trying to find your voice, and every new direction seems so fresh and inviting.
Posted by Idinraha at May 18, 2005 02:46 PM
Comments
Javad,
Who is Amir?! I read his comment yesterday and of course cried. It's a shame that we hardly get to know our own flesh and blood. Hanna has Aurash's picture is in her box of memories. Ahmad has sketched Aurash's face. But we never knew him and now it's too late. Unless you want to write his memoir? Too heart breaking; don't recommend it.
Posted by: Maryam at May 18, 2005 04:39 PM
You sound like you need to take a vacation. I know I'm not one to give advise having 5 weeks plus of unused vacation and working 12 hour days right now...this year I'm going to take not just one, but two vacations...(or at least try too).
Please have my sympathies for you ear infection (very painful). I suffered for several years with ear infections and went through several different treatments (most from quack doctors recommended by my parents).
Most ear infections of them start with allergies -I was told to treat mine with over-the-counter decongestants such as Mucinex (Guaifenesin is the key ingredient - it's the best expectorant in my opinion). When that did not work, I went on antibiotics - ear drops like Floxin and then the oral stuff.
You get "swimmers ear" if you get water in your ear when you shower - you might need to change your shower head (I did, they are easy to replace). Or it happens when you fail to treat your allergies and fluid goes into your ear. Also never put stuff in your ears including cotton buds to clean them out (are you doing that???)
If that does not work - there are two nasal decongestants that you can take on a regular basis that prevents them. Ask your doctor about those. I will give you the names of them if you are interested.
Anyhow, that's what worked for me.
Suggest these to your doctor and see what might be workable for you. You might even need to see an allergy specialist. You lie on your chest and they prick you bare back with 42 things that people could be allergic too (not painful in the least).
I've been ear infection free for over a year now!
Get well soon!
Posted by: ShrinkLady at May 18, 2005 05:23 PM
If Houtan's medicine does not work for your ear I think I know why...
"He checked my eyes after i passed trough his receptionist, and the new nurse..."
Posted by: cycho ![[TypeKey Profile Page]](http://www.idinraha.com/nav-commenters.gif)
at May 18, 2005 08:02 PM
What happened to my post??? Did it disappear or did you not like it???
Posted by: ShrinkLady at May 19, 2005 12:42 AM
There it is...
Posted by: ShrinkLady at May 19, 2005 11:26 AM
you see my dear SL, I would not dare, specialy after all the care and attention you give us in your comments, you rock
Posted by: Idinraha at May 19, 2005 11:43 AM
Thank you for your compliemts. You are very generous and I am very touched (blushing).
Posted by: ShrinkLady at May 20, 2005 01:05 AM
hi!!!
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