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June 15, 2005
Comfort of strangers
I know Cyrus does not like it, he has told me, when I write about my problems with my family. It might make some of you uncomfortable too, I am sorry, but this is my way of getting get off of me. The whole idea behind writing these pages was to have a place to gather my poetry, showcasing them, but it has come to be more than that. My Rants in many ways have become more important, at least to me, to be able to vent off, and open the scabs, allowing it some air, some healing.
It has turned off my sister, my brother Hossein was objecting to me saying as much as I do, but I told him, that I treat every one here with as much respect as I can. If I showcase any shortcomings by anyone, I also tell you the culture that has been the culprit of making them the way they are. I also tell you that warts and all I am happy about how I have turned out, and would not change anything in my life. Robert Bly, in his book "The Iron Man", write, that it is our wounds that makes us who we are, and we become so much better because of our wounds. Our damage becomes our treasure, for they bring us where we are. I believe in that
I have always believed that JUDAS was the victum, not Jesus. And he in some ways has made Jesus the figure he is. I have never believed in society of victumhood, and has never viewd myself as a victum. I am the product of a society i was born in, and the upbrining I have had, and in many ways I am an okay person, and comfortable with it.
I tell you a lot of the blessings I have, and how I appricite them.
I share with you my joy and my pain, leaving you traces, and if what I do helps anyone as much it helps me, my job is done. But more than anything this is the story of my life, and if it turns you off you are not obligated to read, you come here of your own free will, and I am not forced to you. You also have a choice if you come here, to read what yo0u want, poetry, the boo0k I started, and the Rants that you like.
You also have come to be a blessing to me with your comments, all of you, I learn so much from you, and Iam in debt to you for it. Cyrus's dry humor, and his own special view of the world, the way he sees things and as much as he shares with me, Fereydoon's sensebilities, and his angles , his vision, I have learned a lot from him, and the diversity the differences amongst the three of us all coming from the same culture, but brought us in different families, and how that has made us all such different personalities. Shrink Ladies comprehensive remedies, and views, her matter of fact, factual sensibilities, Chey's own romantic ways, Inasy's pesise and soo0thing words, and all the rest who add so much, this is all such an allowance to me and my life.
There is no intention or a definite agendas in writing these pages. I come here every morning and just write , the way I see it. I wellcome all the different views I recieve, Political and social, and pride myself that I have never edited, or deleted anything even when they were different views that mine. I celebrate those differences since I know how fragile, and how one sided, how biast, and narrow my views could be. So take me as I am, Guide me as you would, tell me and I listen, and bear with me, you are wellcomed here, you are aware of the fact the time you spent here could be spend else where since God kno0ws we can find anything we want on the internet. and thanks, many thanks.
Posted by Idinraha at June 15, 2005 11:36 AM
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Thanks for sharing.
Posted by: LiveLife ![[TypeKey Profile Page]](http://www.idinraha.com/nav-commenters.gif)
at June 15, 2005 03:04 PM
So let me tally this up, poetry has kind of taken a back seat, friends and family are defensive (OK, pissed off)... Yep, I'd say if this were a business I'd fire you for killing off the product and the customers! But it's not a business, yet I am reminded of a question that a workshop teacher of mine was fond of asking his students when observing their work:
"Is it doing what you want it to do"?
I always took his question as being a nice way of asking "What the hell kind of crap is this?!". But then HE WAS THE TEACHER - he was entitled to ask that (certainly when looking at my work :). But over here, I'm just an observer.
But I still have a hard time imagining that all this is doing what you want it to do.
Posted by: cycho at June 16, 2005 03:16 AM
Haven't heard from you here. Where are you?
Posted by: LiveLife at June 17, 2005 01:21 PM