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August 11, 2005
good news
Well I am happy to announce that Weston Magezine, which is a regional magaezine in Fairfield county, has accepted to publish my poem RAPING LONDON , in its next issue. I recieved a very nice call from the magezine's Editor. She complimented me for my work and said she would be interested to see more of my work. I gave her the password for the site and asked her to feel free to examine my other works.
She also told me, that the title of the poem will be placed on the cover of the magezine with my name Idinraha. right beneath Arthue Miller's name.-- Isn't that a kick in the head. I am elated and so very happy, and could not keep the smile away from my face.
Last night i tried to broil some steak for myself, got the steak ready and tried to turn on the stove. And no success. I called my wife, and she guided me step by step and I was succesfull in following her. The steak ended up over cooked, and tasteless. I threw
it out , and had some of my son's breakfast wuffles.
Choob is in. I am happy also totell you, that last night I started chapter eleven of the book and as I had told you we do have a new character, called CHOOB, completely based on My dear friend, and guardian Cyrus, he knows that and has given me permission to do this as long as I stay within my boundries. We will see about that. he would be the most sane character in the book, and having him would balance all the agony angst and missbehavior we have seen at the first ten chapters. Dr, B is away so I have been writing the last three chapters without any input from her, walking the rope without the net. I am sure she will be pleased by the volume of my writing.
I am in limbo, trying to pass the time, and the days can not end for me quick enough. I do not go anywhere at nights, although Julia was nice enough to invite me over for dinner two nights ago, and I had a wonderfull home cooked food, and was greatfull for it. Somehow I am more comfortable staying home.
I have been coaxed to do this so bear with me, How am I doing emotionally, actually much better than last time. Somehow I do not, allow myself to thin, keeping myself busy. The house is empty, and there was a time that I could not be left alone in an empty house. But Iam doing it. I don't know how people live alone, I guess we are creatures of habit, we get used to anything. Kiana my little Star, has left me messages every where I go. In the draw that I leave my keys, watch and ring. On the TV screen, in the bedroom. and usually she is the one that runs to me every night when I get home, so I do not look at the hallway after I get in thehouse, i just take my cloth off put them on the chair and go straight to the family room.
Falling sleep is difficult, I think about the book, and where we are going with my characters, plans for the next scene, or somethign, and then its morning, and I am happy that I could flee the house, and go to the Gym. It is easier during the day, since I am used to being by myself, and keep busy. But I can tell you, I am living without my soul these days. those three own my soul, and somehow they have taken it with them. I live by my instincts. I eat, drink, walk, go, and comeback, and basically these two weeks I do not live, I just exsist.
and once they are back LIFE WILL BE GOOD AGAIN. but at this point this is not my life.
Posted by Idinraha at August 11, 2005 11:50 AM
Comments
Congratulations on Weston Magazine! You deserve a good kick in the head for that! Too bad those folks don't appear to have a website...
And thank you (I guess?!) for including the "Choob" in your book.
And what is the "coaxing" thing?
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at August 12, 2005 10:09 AM
you must and should be elated.. For this is just the begginning my friend..
Posted by: inasy at August 13, 2005 10:32 AM