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October 19, 2005
I belong to you
I think to myself, Hey why not. The waters are quiet now, there a quiet breeze passing by. I can always find the sun, and know where the moon is. Why not. the planes are flying all over the world, and tired passengers are happy to get to their destinations. there are hands holding hands, there is love growing in some dimension somewhere. There are friends deep in discussion over the price of bread while sipping their teas. A girls lips is being kissed for the first time somewhere. There are cars being driven in crowded roads, and a boy is learning how to ride a horse for the first time. and eager hands of a Doctor somewhere is holding a new born baby.
It is not that complicated, It is simple. so let the birds go and cherish the depth of a sky. let the sun rise and the moon glow. Drink the water, eat the bread, and smile. there would not be another day like this to celebrate life. I envy the simplicity of his ways, his quiet knowing and his patience. I envy how he sees the blacks in all their severity and the whites in all their kindness. When the birds fly he turns his head, and watches them hurry to the end of the sky with wonder in his eyes. and I think I am so very lucky to know him, and learn from him.
Let's not lose the wonder, allow the kid to stay in play, and allow him another day of innocence. open the door and let the quiet spider to crawl out, allow it another day. and practice how to smile inside your head. There are angels every where, you just got to see them, and when you do they will touch you light as a feather, reaching as a knife in the water, soothing like love at its most quiet glorious moments.
Walk outside your life and take a look, a closer look at all you are getting and how much less you are giving and remember its the balance that brings peaceful sleep at night, the equilibrium of your trades. Ask for it, the same way you ask for sustenance, the same way you ask for water, ask for it and get it and in order to get it you will find you have to give, its an even trade that pays so high a dividend.
A close hand is only a fist, and open hand has many possibilities. The gate to you and all you feel, like open eyes, and open arms. ask for it, wanting is never enough, ask for it, its there for you to claim, close at hand. Hey why not?
I follow her with my eyes these days, touch her on her shoulder, kiss her arms, I call her, and smile, she become the mirror and smiles back, I hold her in my arms and hold a lamp in my hand and the light comes, that's the way I see it and it makes her smile. He fills my arms these days much more than ever and holds me closer, that is our space within our lives, inside each others arms. She can still sit in my lap and hangs by my neck, she is growing, and I am planning to love her more every day, more for ever, she smiles when I pinch her butt, she knows we are connected in so many ways and we will find more.
Belonging is such a reassuring sense, I belong to you of my own desire I belong to you for you make me a better person by belonging to you. You give me a sky and I will shine, you give me life and teach me how to live, I belong to you, for you have bargained for me with all the love you give me every day of my life.
Lets paint the sky Blue again, lets have a golden sun, green trees, and hills, flowers in all hues and a quiet breeze. and lets put ourselves in that scene, hang it on the wall in the foyer, or maybe in the family room where we live more than anywhere else. and in a few years I will buy us a bigger frame and paint again, knowing you are here and I belong to you.
Posted by Idinraha at October 19, 2005 01:14 PM