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December 11, 2008
I could have asked you to stay...
At noon I miss my shadow,
I can squint and look further
I am more assured of my left half
So I walk south knowing that the sun
would be behind me as I walk slightly tilted
I would send you a letter, I will
you looked so lost when i saw you last
I had told you we are getting old, you smiled
with the lights dancing in your eyes, you smiled
I remember how I touched your face, i traced the lines
along your cheek, brushed my finger on your lips, my heart
I palmed your face feeling your breath warm, the life in you
and how I have loved you , and how I have missed you
I look through my boxes,
finding my self in old pictures, I choose one
where I am standing on the porch with the light
fading in the background, I want so much to look
the way you remember me, sad, insecure and young
I want to send you a picture, i want so much
to be there when you receive it , and to watch
you as you look at it, missing me.
somehow the hurt is so satisfying.
I decide against it.
i could have asked you to stay
I could have told you how I felt, desperate
but it was too much, much too much
I hated loving you, desperate as I was
and somehow the hurt was satisfying
I would have closed the door,
locked it, kept you with me all day
and watched you as you slept , and yet
i could have wanted you more, all of you
skin and bone, your breath, your sweat, the life in you
I could have asked you to stay...........
Posted by Idinraha at December 11, 2008 03:05 PM
Comments
very pretty...very sad...
Posted by: j at December 17, 2008 12:58 PM