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April 29, 2011
Some days
some days, long and uninhibited. there is a quiet in my head floating weightless but heavy on me. Days of purgatory, days of expectation overcast by knowing that the more I go the less I find. I have come to acknowledge that solitude suits me, calms me. As sociable as I might feel or be. I enjoy staying away in secluded spaces that can be controlled.
I am moving toward a destination and though I hesitate and look back, though I stand and pause I know that I should move on, just being ahead of the crowd or following them, It's not clear to me yet. I could enjoy a companion but I get bored when they have nothing to offer but the same and the same was the reason I am here, away......
The solution maybe taking a course something without boundaries, I like the air in the universities, I like teachers with uncombed hair , corduroy pants, I like the berth of their enthusiasm, and the sense of wonder present, the expectations.
Driving my son home the other day I noticed how black his beard was, and the delicious contrast it brought to his face against his lips and skin. It is such a blessing to have him , and look at him with adoring eyes while he talks
keeping his old man in the loop . He is my road , my light and sustenance that will keep me going, he is everything
Posted by Idinraha at April 29, 2011 03:34 PM